Showing posts with label Linus. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Linus. Show all posts

Monday, February 27, 2012

Project “Leaving Linus” update

My fledgling project to avoid mindlessly hanging out with Linus (the name I gave my computer, in case you missed that episode) when I’m not doing something actually meaningful has had some nice results. One is this photo … more on that in a minute. For now, on to the status update on Project "Leaving Linus."

Great blue herons

The first change is that avoiding this mindless thing has made me aware of how much time I typically spend at the computer when I have no particular goal. I also realize that deciding to hang out less with Linus has left me more open to things that happen to pass my way, things I might normally dismiss (“Maybe, if I have time” or “Nah, that’s not convenient” or “I’ll probably be too tired” or simply “I’m too lazy”). It turns out that some of those things truly interest me, if I can just get past my lethargy and sloth and actually consider them as genuine possibilities.

For instance, here are some things I did in the past week or so that I likely would have dismissed in favor of aimless time at home (which usually translates to time in front of the screen):
  • At the tamest end of my adventurous continuum, on a couple of occasions, I simply packed up my reading and headed for a local coffee shop—for no reason other than to get out of the house, away from the computer, and into some of the reading I claim to want to do. Not exactly wild, but definitely atypical for me. So it is an adventure in the scheme of things. BTW, Stephen King’s new book about JFK’s assassination is pretty gripping!
  • In a slightly more adventurous vein, I decided to go to a performance of the Interactive Theater Project at CU. The performance was about the distinction between old-fashioned and modern racism and about being an ally to other folks who are facing (often subtle) prejudice. Both of these topics interest me a lot. But this was an evening performance, and I had no one to go with. So usually, I would have stayed home instead… it’s easier, more familiar, less hassle strategically, less of a stretch psychologically. But I went anyway. What else was I going to do—hang with Linus? As is almost always true with ITP, I enjoyed the performance and the discussion afterward. Cool.
  • Feeling my oats, I went to a movie at the Boedecker, the small theater at The Dairy, my first time there. The movie, “Tomboy,” was, as the title suggests, about a girl who violates traditional gender norms—a French film, with the slow-moving quality common to many French movies. It was an interesting portrayal of a complicated topic, with great acting by a couple of kids. This, too, I usually would not have bothered with, for no good reason. But I was really glad I went, although the audience’s understanding of the film was a bit “off,” IMHO. Still, I learned some stuff about how folks on the streets of Boulder think (or at least talk) about these things. Wow. Twice in one week!
  • Then, as if Linus hadn’t already been abandoned enough, on Friday evening, I went to a talk and slide show at REI, “Wildlife in Winter.” It was informative and fun, with lots of great photos. The whole experience took me back to the days when I knew a lot about wildlife. Interestingly, I felt no urge to take notes. This is a new phenomenon that has just cropped up in the last couple of years. This was the third evening outing when I usually would have hunkered down at home. I could get used to this.
  • To round out the week, I spent most of Saturday cruising around north Boulder County with a handful of volunteer naturalists and a gaggle of folks eager to learn about—and to spot—raptors. Most folks had sophisticated equipment: high-power binoculars, fancy cameras with long lenses, high-tech spotting scopes. I had my camera phone. Oh, yeah—and my trusty binoculars from trips to Alaska many years ago (like, 15?). My tools worked totally fine for my purposes. (Although I must admit to moments of envy when I would have loved to snap off a great photo.) I loved being outside all day, focusing on wildlife, and soaking up the fresh air, the sun, and (true to Boulder) the afternoon wind. 
Here’s my list of sightings for the day, from memory rather than recorded, so the accuracy is iffy:

o   First thing in the morning, before the official wildlife trip even began, I watched a cow licking her brand new calf, welcoming it to the world. I’m sure it was a new calf, because on my way back a short time later, a cute little wobble-legged calf was standing in front of mom at the same spot. The meadows are sprinkled with what we call “cow dots” now. It always seems too early to me. But I guess nature knows more about these things than I do. This means coyotes will be hanging around these meadows, too.
o    As the birding group gathered before we began our tour, a single bald eagle flew across the water right in front of us and scooped up a fish as if s/he had seen it all the way from the other side. Not a bad start to our outing!
o   Just as we started our drive, we saw a golden eagle perched in a tree right by the road, posing for photos. My camera phone was not up to this challenge (my first hint of the camera envy that would flicker through the day), but I have a picture in my mind’s eye. Then it took off, flying right above us, as cameras snapped all around me.
o   Along the way, we saw many red-tailed hawks, which are very common in these parts. I learned a lot about how varied these birds are—including the fact that even the red tail is optional. Who knew?
o   We spotted several American Kestrels, very small falcons that you can often see perched on a wire or a fence. This is one of my favorite birds—tiny, by raptor standards, with beautiful markings. I love it when they hover, which we didn’t see on this trip, but I also have a mental picture of that, from earlier encounters, and it serves very well.
o   As we were stopped to view a large heronry (a “rookery” for herons—lots of nests gathered in just a few trees), we also saw several great blue herons hanging out near a pond nearby. Again, I couldn’t capture the heronry with my mini-lens camera. But through a bit of desperate ingenuity, I managed to maneuver the lens of my phone over the eyepiece of someone’s spotting scope and captured the picture at the top of this blog. I’d love to say that I planned the artistic quality of this picture, but the truth is that I just didn’t get it lined up well. Oh, well. Artistry is always part serendipity, I hear.
o   And, to finish the day with a certain symmetry, we saw three coyotes—a single one early in the day and then a pair that we watched for quite a while, just as our trip wound down. They were “spotting,” too. They seemed especially interested in scenes similar to my early morning experience with the calf.

When I got home, somehow more tired than I should have been (too many wild adventures in one week, I reckon), Linus was there, apparently unperturbed by my absence. In fact, she seemed oblivious to the fact that she had been deserted so often.

Do you think this intense connection might be one-sided?




Sunday, February 19, 2012

Cyberblanket

“Security is a thumb and a blanket”
-         Linus

A few days ago, I wrote about my encounter with the thought that I had slipped into a rut that threatened to lead me straight to boredom. Well, a friend responded to that post by email, and her comments were really thought provoking. I asked her whether I could pursue it here, and she said OK. So …

My friend suggests that computers encourage a sort of passive, reactive relationship to the world instead of an active one—hardly her presentation in life. Given this perspective, she didn't like that she was spending so much time on her computer. So she decided to undertake a “project” to see what it would be like to spend a lot of time away from her computer. She found the experience freeing … and her story about it set me to thinking.

As I was thinking about this in the context of my incipient boredom and my sense of being in a rut, an image of Linus and his security blanket came to mind. Make me Linus, and you know where that says about my computer.

For me, at least, spending hours cuddled up with my computer started with the fact that virtually everything I do happens at the computer. My part-time work involves editing documents online. One of my volunteer gigs is managing the website for the Boulder Valley Safe Schools Coalition, online. Most of my communications with friends and family are by email, online. I read the news every day, online. I hunt for information, find movies, get tickets for events, check on restaurant hours, etc., all online. And of course, I do this blog online.

And now, I fear I have become so accustomed to hanging out with my computer that I feel at loose ends if I step away from it. Like, I forgot how to be in the world for more than a very short time without my hands on a keyboard and my eyes on a screen. So, when I find myself with a bit of uncommitted time, I sit at the computer and try to find things to do there.  Check the news, scan the msn homepage for new stories, play a game or two, surf aimlessly.

In short, I end up trying to think of things to do on the computer instead of actually doing things in the world. I do this even though I have other things that would be much more engaging, less passive—things that I say I want to do. That’s a path started for a reason and shaped into a rut by convenience, habit, and flat-out inertia.

I have two thoughts about this (other than recognizing the compelling draw that this machine seems to have):

  • First, back in the day, people had similar worries about the telephone and then about TV. It will make people lazy, they’ll never bother to go out to visit neighbors, they’ll wreck their eyes staring at the screen and their bodies sitting on the couch eating junk food.
I guess some of those things have happened. It’s true that we phone when we could go over. And the epidemics of obesity and ill health can be laid partly at the feet of TV. But civilization didn’t end, people didn’t stop growing legs (which my father predicted), and TV didn’t turn out to be the end of the line as far as passive entertainment goes. So, are computers really so bad? Can we tell yet? Is our worry about over involvement with our computers just the contemporary version of our grandparents’ and parents’ fears about phones and TV? If so, does that mean our fear is misplaced?
  • My second thought is about this concept in psychology called functional autonomy. It refers to the fact that something that initially served some purpose (or function) can eventually become important in its own right (or functionally autonomous.) This concept has been used to describe things like smoking (Folks start for peer approval, but smoking soon becomes its own motivation, and smokers smoke even if their peers hate it. Smoking has become functionally autonomous) or mastering a skill (You begin a craft to earn a living, but soon, the mastery takes on importance in its own right, even if you earn nothing for it. The skill has become functionally autonomous).
Hanging out at the computer seems like this. You start because it serves a purpose. Pretty soon, just hanging out at the computer becomes an end in itself. You do it even when it serves no purpose other than to fill / pass / waste time. This suggests that sitting at the computer has become self-sustaining, although it’s purposeless. Sort of like Linus’ security blanket, holding back all the fearful goblins. Like what? Boredom? The need to actually decide how to spend time? Not a happy thought, in my book.

I have no answers to these things, but I’m very curious about what other folks have to say about it all. I'm guessing some of you have ideas about the risk of letting computers and other techno-gizmos eat up our time and our enthusiasm for other things. Or maybe about how grand they are in the scheme of things. Maybe there are some other Linus clones out there. It would be fun to have a conversation about this, so please join in!

Below a place to add your comments—just click on the drop-down arrow by the box marked "comment as." If you want, you can sign in as "Anonymous," which is the last choice in the drop-down menu, or as Ellen DeGeneres or Aristotle or The Flying Wallendaswhatever! (If you’re reading this by email, go to the blog online at retirementinthemix.blogspot.com to add your comments. Or send me an email and let me know if I can pass it on). Comments from 100 incarnations of “Anonymous” would be sort of fun. Of course, I wouldn’t mind hearing what Ellen DeGeneres thinks of this issue, if she’s willing to share.

Meanwhile, I think I’ll name my computer “Linus” to remind me, in a mildly humiliating way, of the risk of undue attachment to this machine and its magic.